Less than an hour before i go.

Bored is probably the best word to describe how i'm feeling now.

Maybe you can throw in the word 'grumpy' too.

I wonder if it's bcos i slept too much. but i've been grumpy lately. perhaps lack of late night activities to excite my life. i wanna sleep. rest. something.

getting a split headache from reading blogs with crap english. i refuse to think that it's bcos i'm old but their grossly misspelt words. it's ok to have abbreviations of course. we have the standard 'of cos', 'rite', 'bcos' etc etc

but anything that has more than 5 deliberately misspelt words in a sentence of 10 words, i'll flog u personally.

i'm really havin a great deal of trouble reading and understanding and do u know typing such crappy english screws up ur english big time? that includes all the messed up english with no grammer wadsoever. when the time comes for proper english, gd luck to u.

fumbled thro a few more blogs and read a ex-colleagues's entry. sad to know she broke up. it's kinda like a season for break ups for the previous few mths. once u break up u'll start finding most of the ppl ard u facing the same problem somehow. maciam some sorta chained reaction. sheesh.

can see she is pretty affected. then the qn of trust pops up to every break-up-ees. can they trust? who to trust? haiz. too subjective. fault of the society allowing ppl to be so frivolous abt relationships? i believe largely so but not entirely.

when i faced MY own break up more than half a year ago, those who were around me know how bad a state i was in and how so devastated i was. i too was abit sceptical abt people on how much trust do they deserve. but i was still willing to trust, if the right one comes along of course.

so i was darn careful with my choice and decision.

thank god, till now i feel blessed with whom i'm with.
somehow i won't say we're characteristically the same. nor are all our interest alike. in fact there are alot of dissimilarities but not threatening ones. good thing and things we do share and have in common, are our principles and values.

i wonder what everyone expects from a r/s?

everyone's expectation is quite different.
some wants it to be companionship-somewhat. as in, have someone to be with them, to take care of them, bla bla bla

to some it's omost like a game.

some undeniably serious in the relationship but there are cases of possesiveness that turns sour...

some wants it to fill up their time..

how long is a relationship worth?

how long is long?

or in their expectation, how long do they expect it to last?

forever?

pls define forever to me. i want statistics.

issit merely an illusionary destination that perhaps could nt be reached? or perhaps 6 mths considered long enuff? i've heard of cases of 2 weeks! perhaps till marriage? after that? divorce in view? or is marriage+kids+growing old and wrinkly too beyond the 'forever' u know that it kinda freaks u out?

i've someone tell me 3 years (refering to my past r/s) is abt time to break up. reached end of r/s where both party is sian. someone older than me. that's probably the lamest thing i've heard, and the most unacceptable explaination. but of course, everyone's opinions differ and everybody meets different ppl and it's not often u get lucky enuff to meet someone gd and havin so many encounters with assholes, u more or less will sum it up to being that the world is unfair and we shldn't be so naive.

saddening.

*clings on to ah wai*

THANK GOD I FOUND U! *BLINKS*